The Beginning

This morning, I decided to keep a personal blog. I am on day six of a 50-day fast. This is a personal journey. One that I have decided to take to become closer to God and to find my true self. I want to find happiness and peace.

Three years ago, I was very close to my ideal weight. Honestly, I was four pounds shy of reaching 180 lbs., my mark for a 100-pound loss. So, yes. Before my first attempt to lose weight, I weighed 280 lbs. When I began that journey, I had the number "280" tattooed on my upper left arm. It serves as a reminder of where I have been.

As I reflect, I ask myself what happened. How did I go from a person who worked out everyday along with counting calories to a person who did absolutely nothing? How was this remotely possible? To answer these questions, I have to look back at what happened during those three years. 

I moved twice, first in 2014 and next in 2016. My first move was to a Buras, LA, located in the toe of the boot. It only takes one trip to the place to realize how desolate it is. I was forty minutes from the nearest read light and even farther from any friends and family. Being there created an atmosphere of depression. Before I moved in 2016, I was seeing a psychologist. Of course being in the town was not the only factor that contributed to my depression, but it was a big one.

I now live in Mandeville. LA, a really nice suburban town. I live just eight minutes away from my brother. You name it, it is here. I have a great job with excellent pay, especially for a teacher. Over the past year, I have allowed the depression to transcend into my new life.  

No more! The purpose of this fast is to identify my new self, to be happy.


Weight: 240
Height: 5'8"